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Hello. I'm Yasmin. 18 (2018)
This is the place where i share my life adventures to unknowns.


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Hella Fella. Welll i mean hi. I know i am not suppose to be updating my blog right now but no can do because i can rarely use the keyboard. You probably don't understand this but yeah, keyboard. Laptop's keyboard has gone crazy. I can only type the letter i and o and enter key. So frustrating. ugh. So all i can do is scroll up and down, double click.

I'm on my school break-(again). After some weeks of school break, one day of school-(due to our finals) and break again. And then finals again. Oh god. This school break ain't so fun after all. I am not studying so well too. Wandering and wandering through my fantasies instead. hAlp. I've sat for sivik and bm. Bm was fine but sivik. Nahh.. it was awfully harder than we thought. Selalu jawab sivik rilek main bantai ikut logik akal semua, boleh lagi score A; ha kali ni cikgu bantai engko balik. Tak tahu lah result acano nanti. hadumak.

For this year's school session, we'll end it with the finals. Sucks. Habis finals terus cuti ugh agak sakai. No time to have fun with chingudeul. Cuti pun lambat for this year hais. And then we'll be having jamuan prs. If i knew the morning session was gonna join, i would have gave my task to them. I still have exams to be sit. But they wrote there the activities will be organize by the form two(s). eisshhh.

Eh you know what, its been a few weeks since i saw senpai. Using the nickname senpai again because i can. Honestly i do miss him- (odg) but what can i do. ceh. lol fyi im not gonna do my jiwang-time for now. jiwang kakakaka. have i always been? hahahah allahualam. but i've been seeing him a lot these days. in my dream. aw man. but although he always appear in meu dream, the situation is always the same. Me chasing him. Not physically i mean. Its like chasing him la umm like i want him. ugh soz i dont know how to put em in words. And that just made me sad everytime i woke up. Im always like "hi there" , wave, smile and do such things - (more like flirting bluek) but he was just- idk. so cold. he saw them but he ignored me and walked away. damn that hurts. The moment i saw him in my dream, i was utterly happy and was hoping it was real. But because of his character, i just hoped it wasn't.

There's a scene from my dream that i remembered. It was at Anjung A and there was a lot of people there, i dont even know why. But among all of them, i could only see him. haha funny isn't it. He went through the crowd and made his way to me. (dayum son ahaaaahaha) i automatically smiled and he smiled back (for the first time in foreveaaaah hahaha). He called my name and said he wanted to tell me something and i just knew what he was gonna say. I knew it was gonna hurt me but i said okay and listened. I knew he was going to reply to my feelings [because he haven't and im still waiting for it but nevermind]. Ah his words were so painful. My heart shattered into pieces but all i said was 'its okay'.

Well that is all for this time. All the best for me and all the best for those who'll be sitting for any exams and spm. May allah ease. bye

Labels: 2014

"you look fat" "you're darker than me" "because you're dark" "your butt is kinda.." "your boobs are kinda.." "i think i should delete my ig posts. It's not well-organized" "you just realize it now?""you suck in choosing songs" "wow you know english songs? lol i thought you only listen to kpop" "you're kinda hypocrite you know?"

But in the same time they want me to ignore the negative comments and live on. They told me i cared about negative things too much and forgot the good things i have. They always give me the-annoyed-look and "there you go again =,=" everytime i tell them about the negative statements. So they told me to be what i wanna be. "You are who you are." "Don't change yourself for someone." you know,, I would if i could. They told me I didn't live to please someone but um, did they even realize and really thought of what they said? They asked me "what's wrong?" but didn't know they were the reason why. They gave me hope but then they put me down by insulting without noticing. I who is a coward, never speak out my thoughts to their statements. Just so they won't get hurt by my words. Instead, I would smile and walk away or just say "yeah" and leave. I dislike pointing out my thoughts that I am unsure with what the respond will be. Maybe they'll hate me until the level they want to kill me or hold grudges for a loooong time (this thing ain't good sebab boleh memutuskan silaturrahim antara dua pihak and tu dah jadi dosa). I don't like stating offensive comments although it's not but they take it as it. I think twice, thrice or even more sampai dahnak migrain before i do something. Maybe sometimes I don't and be like "JUST DO IT LAH YOLO BISMILLAH FISABILILLAH". I don't think anyone ever noticed this thing except for Aleen. She was always there when these kind of things occur. She always notice if something is wrong. I'm just like HOW DO YOU KNOW WEH. I thought i was a good actress because i was able to hide my sad faces before and be called as the happy-go-lucky-tak-pernah-sedih-punya-orang person. Usually i manage to hide it but maybe not, sometimes. There's one statement that really hit me to my lowest. I cried. Can't believe i did doe like macam gedik gila nak mampos. And some days after, i confessed everything from A-Z from chapter 1 until the end. And damn, i burst into tears again. I thank three of you so much for being there. I wove you TTwTT. I beg you to please stop mentioning about things that i am insecure about. I don't think i have to mention it because everyone can think. Kalau hang masih sebut, you suck. hang bodo. aku benci hang sampai bila-bila. jk jk. Tapi sebab aku sayang hang punya pasai, aku tutup mulut aku daripada argue balik. {sayang ketats-ketats sampai hang takleh nafas.} heh

They wouldn't like if they get this kind of treatment from me. I know. They would probably hate me as heck. So lovelies, think more than once before you act. Think; what if your bad actions hit you back? What goes around comes around tau.You don't know what they go through and maybe they want to forget about something that hurt them the most... Don't ever hurt the place that has been hurt. About this post, i know it's like an indirect arguement or whatever. I gotta admit, yes i am afraid to tell the sekian-sekian directly because i hate making people feel bad.

Maybe satu lagi post macamni akan wujud pada masa akan datang because this happens everytime. They never stop. Allahualam. May Allah Frogive them all. Until next time. Bye.

Labels: 2014, confession

Hi.

A warm hello to September too. It's already september and it also means that there is 1 month until final exam and 2 months to go until 2014 school session ends. Wow it's quite saddening to know that time flies like a blink of an eye. I remember I was hoping to be in 2015 immediately because i thought that i wouldn't be able to adapt the surroundings with the form one juniors. Because i thought they suck to the core. Sorry heh i underestimate you guys too much. Well maybe segelintir tu memang agak serong otaknya. But thoroughly, you guys are okay. The 2013 batch will stay fabulous the way they are now.

My August test results. We sat for only six papers and i've already got 4 of my results. Hm. It's okay i guess. I am satisfied. Setakat ni la. But i already have a C. Really thought i could get a B or an A for that paper but nah. Final exam will do, if god wills and if i put all the efforts to study because "Man Jadda Wa Jada" T^T. Pendidikan Islam will always be my bae. Rasanya paper tu je yang aku agak confident untuk jawab compared to the rest yang aku sentiasa ada rasa nak koyakkan kertas and campak meja keluar tingkap lepas tengok soalan. Yang aku paling tak sangka ialah keputusan english aku lagi tinggi daripada bahasa melayu. Kalau nak tengok level difficulty, berdasarkan pandangan aku memang english agak susah untuk cari keyakinan untuk jawab berbanding dengan b.melayu. Mungkin pemarkahan bahasa melayu lebih strict(?) Allahualam.

Keputusan yang aku dah dapat ni aku kira muktamad punya keputusan lah. Kalau nak tukar markah, pastikan menaik. hewhewhew. Maths aku alhamdulillah tak gagal. Mid-term punya aku gagal. Serius. Aku siap buat drama air mata. Aku cintakan Maths tapi masa tu maths belum kenal cinta, sebab tu gagal. kahkahkah. Sekarang kami sedang bercintan-cintun kekeke. Masa dapat result maths tadi kawan kawan aku macam "oh yasmin veeeery close" but and then Puan Mudirah noticed she mislooked my second last' question and then taraaaa i got an A. Memang cukup makan lah. Armand, Gregory and Insyirah were happy for me. Especially Armand "yayyy yasmin". Armand ni kadang-kadang aku suka nak cakap dengan dia tapi kadang-kadang ada masa aku rasa nak patahkan tengkuk dia.


Friday Saturday Sunday Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday. 7 days. I have now forgot how he looks like. Well i actually saw him last Tuesday but it was just a split of seconds. Let's add a week or more before the friday above. Because i couldn't look at his butipul face during the trial weeks. He was busy studying for his trials. I know he would pass Anjung A everytime balik but the guts you know, the guts. I feel like i'm annoying just to put my head up and look at him. It's embarassing. I miss how charming he looks like. How fair his skin is. But above all, his eyes. Seeing them makes me feel a strange mix of excitement, nervousness, fear and above all, happiness. Sumpah aku kata haritu muka dia bersinar-sinar hahaha ya allah glowing semacam. Tapi dia masih belum fair tahap Imran. I somehow dislikes myself for liking a guy with fair skin. I guess i have some issues here. Like I'm so unfair to guys. Macam tak sedar diri pun ada. Hish

I'll stop here. Until next time, readers. Bye

Labels: 2014

ramai lagi actually. belakang camera, yang tak dapat nak masuk walaupun dah try their best nak menyelit semua.

Assalamualaikum and Hi.












This is on the 2nd day of Syawal. Our raya theme was turqoise actually. But the person yang bawa camera only charge the battery malam 1st syawal because 'baru teringat bawa camera' alahai..








Fourth syawal (ke third entah), BARBEQUEEEEEE
140809. Kak Danishah's open house. I had a nervous feeling bila sampai rumah dia. But i be 'WOW-ing' because With all the races we call 1Malaysia in her house, seniors and juniors too. Kalau boleh ajak satu sekolah terus. hehehe. The night was filled with laughters, awkwardness, kebangangness, kekecohness and most of all happiness. Selfies.., tak cakap pun dah tahu. Sampai dalam satu malam boleh reach 500+ gambars. selfie-maniacs. And haha macam ada betul jugak kak danishah cakap, serupa kenduri kahwin. hahahaha. Mohon jemputlah nanti kalau  kahwin ya
hehehee. Yester-night was a wonderful night. Although i couldn't manage to take any pictures with any of my own gadget (lopek, kuno boooo noob) but it's all here, in my heart. halamakkk jiwang benor. Indeed it was the meriah-est open house i've ever went to. Looking forward for next year's kekeke jk. Ah and i'd like to say thank you for inviting. I really really am thankful to be one of the invited persons. I feel special ohohoh. Too cheesy but heh, i laf you. And not to mention, the foods were great too hahaha. ahhh Thank you.

Labels: 2014, eid mubarak, fun time, raya

hi.

140719, A day well spent with loved ones. So basically we, my friends and I attended the majlis khatam quran and berbuka puasa which was held at school. My friends and I came because we participated in khatam quran. Konon dijemput but lol we actually wanted to participate because we heard there will be foods. no food = no us, there's food = there's us. Kata suruh mari pukul 5.45 tapi bila dah mari sunyi sepi pulak. Fortunately my jiran, Reza came along with me. "did we just came too early or we're just too late?". Rupa rupanya depa duk berkumpul satu tempat macam kubu.

So we went to the surau after helping ustazah with arranging the bubur lambuks. And then Alis came. She was a lil late but we didn't mind. She was looking good you know and we be like "omg retis datang" "omgg" xD. The other girls were dazzling too. Pergh berlilit lilit. Me? haha haktui je lah. Jubah biru tudung merah like hahahah i don't have a good sense of fashion. As long as i get to wear something comfortable and im done.

And so majlis khatam quran began and then baca baca and then we listened to cikgu hashim's tazkirah, And then it was time for iftar. Yuuu berpusu-pusu pergi ke kantin. And unlike we expected, there were a lot of peoples there. Ustazah told us sesi pagi 75 orang jerss. But was that the exact amount of 75 because i guess no. Proceed, we sat at the vvvvvvip table because there were like so many bottles of water infront of us. sobs. #sed. We had a light break-fast first because we dont want to waste time nor feel bloated sampai rukuk pun takboleh because maghrib is short. So we performed maghrib's prayer together and cont eating right after. Yeah, i saw him. he was wearing the same baju melayu again. Insyirah told me he never wears anything besides that purple one.

Isha's prayer. I can't. Dah takhiyat akhir then suddenly something distracted me from being khusyuk (ceh). I saw from the corner of my eye, afrina *shakes* *sapu sapu muka* *chuckles*. Ya allah she was laughing. Batal solat. It was the last rakaat like astaghfirullahalazim Afrina. She told us the kain divider kept on tersangkut atas kepala dia so she gave up. bangang. Insyirah smacked afrina hahaha because afrina solat right next to insyirah and that almost made insyirah laughed. hahahahha that was embarassing because we were in the first sof. 

Yesterday was one of my best days because who's not excited when it comes to majlis berbuka puasa? Although only a small amount of friends of mine yang ada yesterday but yet we still have fun yay~ and guess what. this.


im sorry i was being too gedik last night i guess. i was just a lil bit shocked off of what was happening. and i was heavily breathing you know. so it happened again. Back then on 2012, things messed up because they read my blog because i wrote about izz here. haha. And now it happened again.. Well 2014 is ending so i guess its okay. Lagipun this kind of feelings won't last forever. It can fade away some time without me noticing. Aw man that just sucks. But idk. 'im still too young to know how love really feels like' heh. They told me im still a kid. Yay, im glad they still categorize me as a kid because yeah i miss being one. Sorry. I tried my real best to hide my feelings and i didn't even plan to get this attached to him. I remember i was like "don't fall so easily. no no no not him" before. But tadah i lose. Sometimes we just can't help ourselves with whom we fall inlove with. pls don't attack me just because im too young to fall in love. im very sorry

and i like how our eyes met, yesterday. thank you for entertaining me with your existence.

bye. may allah bless.

Labels: 2014

Assalamualaikum and Hi.

Been a while ey. Noticing that we had passed the 15th day of Ramadhan makes me realize that time is moving so fast. Don't leave us, Ramadhan. :( But good stories bad, will still be tell by me, here. So lets.

So firstly, I'm going to tell something that happened a while ago. 140704. It was in the middle of Thursday night. Midnight. I saw senpai's tweet. So, i knew he was still awake, online. I was hoping he'll talk to me like a light conversation, acquaintance-kind-of-conv. although via twitter jers. But i thought like "nahhhh, won't happen" so i kept on tweeting things that went on my mind. Just a while after that, he replied to one of my tweets, asking me to go to sleep since we have school tomorrow. I got goosebumps and i even smiled widely. I was smiling like crazy, my mind went akhfkfhdlkhdomgahhhhhh and my heartbeat just won't go slow. It was a moment to remember.

I took my time to reply. I was like dehel deheq segala. I went outta control because of a reply. Like 'that' kind of reply je pun kan. So i be like "control urself Yasmin". So i took a really deep breathe and i replied to his tweet. And jjajajannnnn~ A conversation was made. So we stayed up until sahoor. It was a really "omgomgomgomgomg" moment. I get fireworks in my belly. Although at the end, he didn't reply like ugh. Favourite pun tak. It frustrates me but oh well. The next day, i came to school with a big smile on my face haha. And  my friends who saw the conversation be making weird faces. "uuuuuuuuuuuuu" haha i love them.

And that night, during terawih, i saw him. I came the same time he did. He was wearing a purple baju melayu. He was walking infront of me. My dad was being loud, (memerli diriku kerana makan terlalu banyak sampai nak keluar kereta tak boleh) so senpai turned his back and took a look at us. It was like 5 secs like dat. But it was dark so idk if he recognized me. Because i, someone with a quick sense (ceh ceh {but srsly}) pun took a while to actually recognize it was him. When the witr prayer has ended, insyirah and i walked out from masjid to go back to our cars and while we were heading to our cars, we bumped into senpai. I knew we were going to because i saw him from afar and there was only one way to go through so we went through and he was looking at us with a fierce look until insyirah said hi to him. "oh, kau rupanya". Was identifying eihh? //giggles. I was slightly nervous that he was walking right next to me sampai nak terlanggar like eyyyy ishh. but hihi blushing blushing haha wtf

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So that was the first one; Next, i made a memory jar. Where i fill the jar with good happy memories note so i can read one if i feel sad. Insyirah suggested it to me to make that and i did. So i wrote the stuffs that happened on the day we first met, Me and Senpai. It's kinda an ewww thing because i be like 'everything is about him'. But um hello, he's someone i can't resist. And yeah, meeting him was a bless. But we don't know yet. What's gonna happen soon so i am trying to not get too attached that can make me go really crazy or obsessed with him. Bahayo mu tahu dok.

And actually we had another conversation last night. This time, it's longer than before. And he even replied quicker. eheueheeuehuehu. Nan haengbokhaeyo. He actually was like "hi wehh xD" and that actually crept me out because i be like "rilek brader jangan eksaited sangat" when i saw that. I actually smiled like crayy again. And so we stayed up again. I don't know but i don't feel the excitement like the previous conversation. I don't want to feel that, the not-excited feel :( I am afraid that i'll give up on him. I don't want to. Anyways, we've got more comfortable in talking to each other, via twitter. Well that's good news. I think both of us know why we only have conversations at those times. While people were sleeping soundly, we be having some shitty conversations until dawn. Well not, just slightly before the dawn. And then only we sleep. I woke up on 12.30pm this afternoon. Bad habit of mine. *don't try dis at home if you don't wanna hear yo mamma nag*

I've always wanted something I imagine becomes real and 1/90839048 did. This kind of conversation is okay too. Guess what, Miracle, it is! Praise Allah~ The feels inside was absolutely undescribable. I couldn't describe how happy i am. Someone that i label as 'special' talking to me,, like ho ho ho ho mannnn. Everything or just anything he does,brighten me up. He've always made my day. Thank you nigga. Now come here and love me back~
Until next time, readers. May Allah Bless. Bye

Labels: 2014, crush, Twittah

Assalamualaikum and Hi.

   Ahlan Wasahlan Ya Ramadhan. Salam Ramadhan fellas. May this ramadan be the month of blessings, a month full of forgiveness and guidances for you and your family. Alhamdulillah, Ramadhan is here once again. I'm very happy that i still have the chance to feel this year's ramadhan. And yeah its been a while since i've updated my blog. But hey hey, I'm here. So let's.

   My feelings towards senpai increases a lot these days. I don't know if that's okay. Because we are still an acquaintance and not more than that. nigga damn. Btw, i saw senpai earlier when i came to school. But heh i really wanted to look at him but i just arrived school so i was sweaty as frick and there were too much people lalu lalang and dayum i thought a lot like " i'll be so creepy " " he'll suspect something " so i was like " oh, he's there " and blah. ; n ; but heck yeah he IS suspecting me for having feelings towards him.  i guess la. Idk but he be very weird everytime we bump into each other. i don't know. ugh. It makes me feel insecure yknow. like " is senpai noticing me? "

He was always trying to avoid me everytime we bump into each other but i don't know. I don't know if he was; Maybe it was just my feelings , maybe not. Oh god this is frustrating.  ya allah. But despite that, i still wanna see him everyday. ehehe. ew yasmin. Dang i'm a risk taker. haih haihhhh. Am I too obsessed with him? Am i ? Ew yasmin, don't lah. bahayo

lol i think this is kinda funny because haha i think kinda miss him. damn. i'm very sorry.

alright. i'll stop here niggus. bye bye

Labels: 2014, crush, School

“What if I told you I’m incapable of tolerating my own heart?” — Virginia Woolf, from Night and Day
— qt (@yasminsyahmina) June 16, 2014

Hi hi.

School.... ya allah sangat perit kerana semua subjek penting are on the first day of school of second semester.  Memang urut kepala pakei jejari juga lah before pergi sekolah. My mom suruh psycho kan sikit otak to try to love school. Astaghfirulahalazim. Mana mungkin diri ini akan cinta pada sekolah kerana pelajaran. I know, orang orang besau semua akan tanya "bistu kamu pergi sekolah untuk apa?" — well,, odg you guys were like us too once. Memang nipu sangat kalau tak pernah tak suka sekolah.

 Alright back to school, i saw senpai today~ nun contact~~ 100pts+ hehehehe. My feeling was like YAAASSSSSSSSS OMAGATTTTT . But my face be like so tight. Idk i really wish i could put a smile on my face everytime i see senpai but haha won't happen.— Senpai keeps tweeting about someone that i-am-very-sure-it-is-a-woman, every night. Oh yes i'm curious of who she is. Notice me, senpai. Q.Q . Ah idk. These feelings; sometimes i feel like hiding my feelings towards senpai 5evaa but sometimes otherwise. Idk.

Such things happen today but my hands doesn't seem to be in the mood to write so much. I really wanted to tell everything here but hm. That's all for this time i guess. I notice my posts are getting shorter and shorter as i update. I don't know what seems to be the problem. heh

Yep. That's all for now. Until next time, folks.

Labels: 2014, crush, School

Hi . We will be going on a trip ayeee wuhuuu~

It has been a while since my family and i went to a trip. Holiday trip. Ahhh i miss the good old times. Our location is at PD. Can't think of anywhere else so yeah. I'm hoping it'll be a great trip for all of us. Idk but i think i'm in the process menggemukkan diri this school holiday like damn ugh. Evolution of yasmin be like;

Fat > Fatter > Fatttttt fatter > Damn so fat lah
People have been telling me i'm getting fatter. I want to have a balance diet but hard leh. Everytime i tell mom i want to go on a diet, she'll be like "ah ngada - ngada" but she be saying i'm fat. I actually think that my weight is normal. It actually is. My BMI is 20 something. I never overweight. But they be thinking that i am overwight because of my weight. I am called fat sejak my weight masuk 48kg when i was 12 back then. Oh my god. Isn't normal weight okay yet for you guys. Do i have to be so skinny to prove everything? haish. Sometimes it is frustrating to hear them saying things i don't wanna here about myself. It's not that i don't want to accept their advices or wtsv but damn. My self esteem will be lower than before.

And i'll be focusing on my flaws, not the beauty in me. It hurts lah der. Prof. Muhaya always advice to find and love the beauty of ourselves and not to find the flaws in us. But no matter what, i always put my head down because i am not as good as them. I know i should be thankful by Allah's blessings but idk. I'm just too concsious of everything that people have that i don't. But i'll try to keep this quote in mind.

Whatever you do, don’t get stuck on the one thing that ruins your day.  Smile and be grateful.  Life is too short to waste on negativity.

That's all for this time. Bye

Labels: 2014, confession

Labels: 2014, Camp, crush, School

lol my face doeee

     Hi and Assalamualaikum. Yayyy i can finally update my blog! I've been busy with mid-term exam and yeah, school stuffs. Secondary school's exam is not normal i tell you. Haih,, i got some of my results already. Astaghfirullahalazim. I ain't saying anything. Quite upsetting.. I think i didn't push myself to study much. I wander too much. Worst results in Yasmin's history. Damn.

Ok so i want to calm myself down since exam is over. Takmo stress stress.

Alright, soo I've been making gifs from the videos i/my friends took using my old phone.. I thought of sumbatkan segala-gala tu in my posts instead of random korean gifs. hahah 'random' lah sangat kan. jk. I miss using photoshop gila gila macam dulu. haha. Punyalah download psds and ps actions banyak gila dulu. Sekarang boleh kira pakai jari je. Semua orang edit gambar pakai vsco je sekarang haha. But tumblr ninjas be sticking to photoshop. foreva and always. haha, their editing skills,, perghhhhhh. idek how they do it. pros.

Ok so my post takkan lengkap without telling about him senpai. Yeah let's call 'him' senpai. haha. I came to school early last friday. Soo yeah, i have the chance to see senpai (before he went to jummah's prayer) and actually i did. Yeah. Well motif datang awal wasn't because of him but he is one of the reason lah. nyahaha. Motif sebenar was actually to bincang about pertandingan surau. Ala,, alang alang tu bolehlah usha sekali hahaha. MashaaAllah creepy nya kelakuan ku. We were at the canteen and he was at the canteen as well with his friends. Depa duk satu meja panjang. Boleh tahan lah. Kami pula duduk menghadap depa tapi jauh sikit na. Memang menghadap senpai but his friend who was sitting infront of him is tall and so he blocked my view. Aish. So i pandai pandai adjust my head to watch him from my place. Not easy. haiss.

And then he stood up and bought some foods. Ahh the view was veerry the clear that time. "Wooh Wooh" , Aisyah gave me a signal. Dengan matanya haha. And then he went back to his seat. And then dia bangun and beli lagi and duduk balik. I watched every single thing he did. Damn i'm creepy. Ya Allah. And i guessed senpai noticed i was keeping my eyes on him. Well i guess so. Because a while after that, he was like angkat kepala dia and looked in my direction. Idk where was he looking that time. And then i turned my back to take a look if there's someone behind us. But no one except paip sinki. Because our seats was like jauhh gila and tinggal satu meja belakang kitorang. I thought like "was he looking at the sink or what?"

And then masa senpai was sitting, and as i told you before, kawan dia yang infront dia is taller and blocked the view so he was trying to look at something/someone in my direction. Idk. idk. I was sitting dekat paling kiri which was menghadap senpai in my seat. Tak lama lepastu azan solat jumaat berkumandang. So he was the first to stood up. Masa dia angkat beg dia, he looked in my direction again. And then he started to leave the canteen. But as he walked, he kept on turning back and looked in my direction. And again and again until dia keluar pagar sekolah. Dayum. Muka ku ketat macam leggings sepanjang masa although dalam ni sedang berbunga-bunga lmao. I can't say senpai was looking at me because i'm not sure. Did senpai notice me?

Nadu Molla. Alright that's all for this time. May Allah Bless You, my reader. 

Sankyu.

Labels: 2014, crush, random, School

Heyy. Haih i left my blog all dusty again. No updates.. sigh. I dont think i wanna continue my entry about that chinese guy. Im sorry for those yang actually anticipate. Because someone asked me if i'll update my entry abt that guy. Unfortunately i wont. T^T. I feel empty. I dont think i hv feelings towards him anymore. So i dont feel the excitement while writing nanti. Because i only write long-ly abt something/someone if im really keen and really excited to tell abt it. Sadly those feelings just fade like that seyh. The feelings just come and go without me noticing. This is life. If i write it without feeling the excitement, the post might come out uninteresting. So i decided not to continue. Im sincerely sorry.

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Sooo its like a month lebih since my last entry, so im going to tell abt something new. Latest stuffs i got lah. First, my phone was stolen. Yay nice kan ugh. But it happened last February. Next is i left my diary at class yesterday. My diary has like the deepest and saddest and happiest and romantic-est(?haha) and dirtiest stories. Damn yasmin. Idk how i could actually forgot to bring back my diary. Because duh, its a diary. Its very important. I just.. damn. Maybe my mind wandered a lil bit too much because lately i always leave my diary situ lah sini la sana lah. Careless. Yasmin has became a nanny.

So like afternoon tadi i came to school a lil bit earlier. 1st Motive was to finish my artwork. 2nd Motive was to check on him(mwahhaaa but he wasnt there ahah sakai betul). 3rd Motive was to take back my poor cute sweet with colorful stripes diary chu chu. So i ran up to my class and when i entered my class, my diary was on someone's table. But near my seat. My class is a form 4's class on the morning session so i kinda freaked out because its on a table and it was opened and not under the table like yesterday so my diary might has been readed by the student of the morning session. dammit. Clueless yasmin, thought her best friend took it from her haha but no. But its a relief that i found my diary. huhu.

So at the end i still havent finish my artwork tho actually today is the due-date. Because i be queen with my own rules. jk. But i ada niat to finish it at least. Am i a good student yet. aha And we had Fire Drill where the bell rang loooooooooongly and so yeah its da sign of the fire alarm(?). And ppl started to freak out and rush to the field where we are supposed to gather within 5 minutes. Well those are only expectations of the teacherssssss. The reality was ppl cat-walked slowly like victoria secret's and calvin klein's models and they even chit chat and went to the toilet lah. Isk isk. If there was actually a real fire they can be like kambing golek alrdy. Rentung habis. Yang tengah membuang pulak nanti menjejes jejes benda tu masa lari to save their life ehehehehehehhaha. So teacher gave us some taklimat and told us to be serious if the bell rings looongly next time. We be like "ok teacher can we go now because our butt is getting bigger due to the hot weather". My only thought was only "padang mahsyar" "the hereafter is much hotter so i hv to be patience" i could actually cry there idk. Too much feelings. Emotional me.


My friends brought their phones to school. So all we did were taking 'us-fies' haha. We be fab like we never be. So i guess thats all for this time's entry. I'll update again soon InshaaAllah. Thanks for spending/wasting your time here. Have a lovely day. May Allah bless. Until next time.

Oh and Happy Birthday Alia! Siti Nur Alia. May Allah grant your wishes and blesses you. Wishing you the best in everything. Love u buddy. x

Labels: 2014, School

Yeah so that's him. He's cuter in real life. I swear.

haa.. im going to continue my story in my next post because it's too damn long. Its a story from 2013. Pls anticipate a lot hehehe. Thanks for spending your time reading my entry. Well....actually it's more to wasting your time since benda ni bukanlah bahan ilmiah. Sobs. Sorry.

Goodbye for now.

Labels: 2014, crush, School

Assalamualaikum and Hi!!!!! Heyyyyyyyy~~ Oh my god i know i've been on hiatus for a quite long time. Since September last year. Okay so first of all. Im sorry. Very very sorry. I dont know if there is someone out there, waiting for my comeback. allhualam. but i apologize tho. Lol ok so im back. Again and again and again and again. And a belated HAPPY NEW YEAR wish for u ols

Aha so, some of them even asked me if im quitting. Being a blogger. I was hestitating. lol. I actually pernah thought of quit blogging but "what if". haaa yes. I overthink. But what if i continue? What will happen? so i decided to continue being a blogger. im not officially am, because u know 'kurang' viewers. and my posts are a lot more pointing to my situations, how's my  life going and stuffs. Confessions etc. thats an example. So its up to you. Follow me or not its your decision because i don't give a damn if i do have followers or not.

Honestly, i didnt gain any followers since 2012. haha. I know its kinda pathetic. harhar. But i have to stay positive. lmao. 'positive' lah kan. I somehow think not having followers are better. Well even if i do, for example, they're going to think im annoying. And they'll think that my posts are uninteresting. But i do think my stories are interesting. lmao hahah mian mian. Because if it's not, im not going to post it here. kan kan kan? betul tak. haha

Ok maybe sometimes out of topic. lt can happen right? I write anything. Everything. I can curse but i prefer not to. Peace. Soooo actually i thought of telling e~~~~~verything abt me here. Anytime. "pls anticipate a lot" hahaha. 'anticipate' my ass. yeah so i'll be telling more stories soon. Maybe abt my crush? haha because i develop crushes easily or just anything, random. yayyy soo pls anticipate for my next post! haha have a nice day. Because i really hope for it. Cheer Up Everyone!!

 Until next time. Bye!

Labels: 2014, back & back again, creys, hiatus-off