Friday, 31 October 2014 @ 23:09
Hella Fella. Welll i mean hi. I know i am not suppose to be updating my blog right now but no can do because i can rarely use the keyboard. You probably don't understand this but yeah, keyboard. Laptop's keyboard has gone crazy. I can only type the letter i and o and enter key. So frustrating. ugh. So all i can do is scroll up and down, double click.
I'm on my school break-(again). After some weeks of school break, one day of school-(due to our finals) and break again. And then finals again. Oh god. This school break ain't so fun after all. I am not studying so well too. Wandering and wandering through my fantasies instead. hAlp. I've sat for sivik and bm. Bm was fine but sivik. Nahh.. it was awfully harder than we thought. Selalu jawab sivik rilek main bantai ikut logik akal semua, boleh lagi score A; ha kali ni cikgu bantai engko balik. Tak tahu lah result acano nanti. hadumak.
For this year's school session, we'll end it with the finals. Sucks. Habis finals terus cuti ugh agak sakai. No time to have fun with chingudeul. Cuti pun lambat for this year hais. And then we'll be having jamuan prs. If i knew the morning session was gonna join, i would have gave my task to them. I still have exams to be sit. But they wrote there the activities will be organize by the form two(s). eisshhh.
Eh you know what, its been a few weeks since i saw senpai. Using the nickname senpai again because i can. Honestly i do miss him- (odg) but what can i do. ceh. lol fyi im not gonna do my jiwang-time for now. jiwang kakakaka. have i always been? hahahah allahualam. but i've been seeing him a lot these days. in my dream. aw man. but although he always appear in meu dream, the situation is always the same. Me chasing him. Not physically i mean. Its like chasing him la umm like i want him. ugh soz i dont know how to put em in words. And that just made me sad everytime i woke up. Im always like "hi there" , wave, smile and do such things - (more like flirting bluek) but he was just- idk. so cold. he saw them but he ignored me and walked away. damn that hurts. The moment i saw him in my dream, i was utterly happy and was hoping it was real. But because of his character, i just hoped it wasn't.
There's a scene from my dream that i remembered. It was at Anjung A and there was a lot of people there, i dont even know why. But among all of them, i could only see him. haha funny isn't it. He went through the crowd and made his way to me. (dayum son ahaaaahaha) i automatically smiled and he smiled back (for the first time in foreveaaaah hahaha). He called my name and said he wanted to tell me something and i just knew what he was gonna say. I knew it was gonna hurt me but i said okay and listened. I knew he was going to reply to my feelings [because he haven't and im still waiting for it but nevermind]. Ah his words were so painful. My heart shattered into pieces but all i said was 'its okay'.
Well that is all for this time. All the best for me and all the best for those who'll be sitting for any exams and spm. May allah ease.
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