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Tuesday, 15 July 2014 @ 23:10

Assalamualaikum and Hi.

Been a while ey. Noticing that we had passed the 15th day of Ramadhan makes me realize that time is moving so fast. Don't leave us, Ramadhan. :( But good stories bad, will still be tell by me, here. So lets.

So firstly, I'm going to tell something that happened a while ago. 140704. It was in the middle of Thursday night. Midnight. I saw senpai's tweet. So, i knew he was still awake, online. I was hoping he'll talk to me like a light conversation, acquaintance-kind-of-conv. although via twitter jers. But i thought like "nahhhh, won't happen" so i kept on tweeting things that went on my mind. Just a while after that, he replied to one of my tweets, asking me to go to sleep since we have school tomorrow. I got goosebumps and i even smiled widely. I was smiling like crazy, my mind went akhfkfhdlkhdomgahhhhhh and my heartbeat just won't go slow. It was a moment to remember.

I took my time to reply. I was like dehel deheq segala. I went outta control because of a reply. Like 'that' kind of reply je pun kan. So i be like "control urself Yasmin". So i took a really deep breathe and i replied to his tweet. And jjajajannnnn~ A conversation was made. So we stayed up until sahoor. It was a really "omgomgomgomgomg" moment. I get fireworks in my belly. Although at the end, he didn't reply like ugh. Favourite pun tak. It frustrates me but oh well. The next day, i came to school with a big smile on my face haha. And  my friends who saw the conversation be making weird faces. "uuuuuuuuuuuuu" haha i love them.

And that night, during terawih, i saw him. I came the same time he did. He was wearing a purple baju melayu. He was walking infront of me. My dad was being loud, (memerli diriku kerana makan terlalu banyak sampai nak keluar kereta tak boleh) so senpai turned his back and took a look at us. It was like 5 secs like dat. But it was dark so idk if he recognized me. Because i, someone with a quick sense (ceh ceh {but srsly}) pun took a while to actually recognize it was him. When the witr prayer has ended, insyirah and i walked out from masjid to go back to our cars and while we were heading to our cars, we bumped into senpai. I knew we were going to because i saw him from afar and there was only one way to go through so we went through and he was looking at us with a fierce look until insyirah said hi to him. "oh, kau rupanya". Was identifying eihh? //giggles. I was slightly nervous that he was walking right next to me sampai nak terlanggar like eyyyy ishh. but hihi blushing blushing haha wtf

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So that was the first one; Next, i made a memory jar. Where i fill the jar with good happy memories note so i can read one if i feel sad. Insyirah suggested it to me to make that and i did. So i wrote the stuffs that happened on the day we first met, Me and Senpai. It's kinda an ewww thing because i be like 'everything is about him'. But um hello, he's someone i can't resist. And yeah, meeting him was a bless. But we don't know yet. What's gonna happen soon so i am trying to not get too attached that can make me go really crazy or obsessed with him. Bahayo mu tahu dok.

And actually we had another conversation last night. This time, it's longer than before. And he even replied quicker. eheueheeuehuehu. Nan haengbokhaeyo. He actually was like "hi wehh xD" and that actually crept me out because i be like "rilek brader jangan eksaited sangat" when i saw that. I actually smiled like crayy again. And so we stayed up again. I don't know but i don't feel the excitement like the previous conversation. I don't want to feel that, the not-excited feel :( I am afraid that i'll give up on him. I don't want to. Anyways, we've got more comfortable in talking to each other, via twitter. Well that's good news. I think both of us know why we only have conversations at those times. While people were sleeping soundly, we be having some shitty conversations until dawn. Well not, just slightly before the dawn. And then only we sleep. I woke up on 12.30pm this afternoon. Bad habit of mine. *don't try dis at home if you don't wanna hear yo mamma nag*

I've always wanted something I imagine becomes real and 1/90839048 did. This kind of conversation is okay too. Guess what, Miracle, it is! Praise Allah~ The feels inside was absolutely undescribable. I couldn't describe how happy i am. Someone that i label as 'special' talking to me,, like ho ho ho ho mannnn. Everything or just anything he does,brighten me up. He've always made my day. Thank you nigga. Now come here and love me back~

Until next time, readers. May Allah Bless. Bye

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Monday, 30 June 2014 @ 21:20

Assalamualaikum and Hi.

   Ahlan Wasahlan Ya Ramadhan. Salam Ramadhan fellas. May this ramadan be the month of blessings, a month full of forgiveness and guidances for you and your family. Alhamdulillah, Ramadhan is here once again. I'm very happy that i still have the chance to feel this year's ramadhan. And yeah its been a while since i've updated my blog. But hey hey, I'm here. So let's.

   My feelings towards senpai increases a lot these days. I don't know if that's okay. Because we are still an acquaintance and not more than that. nigga damn. Btw, i saw senpai earlier when i came to school. But heh i really wanted to look at him but i just arrived school so i was sweaty as frick and there were too much people lalu lalang and dayum i thought a lot like " i'll be so creepy " " he'll suspect something " so i was like " oh, he's there " and blah. ; n ; but heck yeah he IS suspecting me for having feelings towards him.  i guess la. Idk but he be very weird everytime we bump into each other. i don't know. ugh. It makes me feel insecure yknow. like " is senpai noticing me? "

He was always trying to avoid me everytime we bump into each other but i don't know. I don't know if he was; Maybe it was just my feelings , maybe not. Oh god this is frustrating.  ya allah. But despite that, i still wanna see him everyday. ehehe. ew yasmin. Dang i'm a risk taker. haih haihhhh. Am I too obsessed with him? Am i ? Ew yasmin, don't lah. bahayo

lol i think this is kinda funny because haha i think kinda miss him. damn. i'm very sorry.

alright. i'll stop here niggus. bye bye

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Tuesday, 17 June 2014 @ 00:14

Hi hi.

School.... ya allah sangat perit kerana semua subjek penting are on the first day of school of second semester.  Memang urut kepala pakei jejari juga lah before pergi sekolah. My mom suruh psycho kan sikit otak to try to love school. Astaghfirulahalazim. Mana mungkin diri ini akan cinta pada sekolah kerana pelajaran. I know, orang orang besau semua akan tanya "bistu kamu pergi sekolah untuk apa?" — well,, odg you guys were like us too once. Memang nipu sangat kalau tak pernah tak suka sekolah.

 Alright back to school, i saw senpai today~ nun contact~~ 100pts+ hehehehe. My feeling was like YAAASSSSSSSSS OMAGATTTTT . But my face be like so tight. Idk i really wish i could put a smile on my face everytime i see senpai but haha won't happen.— Senpai keeps tweeting about someone that i-am-very-sure-it-is-a-woman, every night. Oh yes i'm curious of who she is. Notice me, senpai. Q.Q . Ah idk. These feelings; sometimes i feel like hiding my feelings towards senpai 5evaa but sometimes otherwise. Idk.

Such things happen today but my hands doesn't seem to be in the mood to write so much. I really wanted to tell everything here but hm. That's all for this time i guess. I notice my posts are getting shorter and shorter as i update. I don't know what seems to be the problem. heh

Yep. That's all for now. Until next time, folks.

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Friday, 30 May 2014 @ 02:56


     Hii. Alrighty so hm i'm writing a random post  this time so jyeah.

     Today is Thursday 290514 but it's 00.59 right now so 300513. Exo's Wolf 1 year anniversary right? Aha ok so, i went to a camp and actually arrived home safely this evening at about 3.55 something dk. It was a great experience although it's not my first time going to a camp. But it was great. Truthfully. The rooms were da best. It was like a hotel room. Well except that the air-conditioner's remote wasnt there that we can't turn on our air-cond. But it was freezing as frick in the night. I was a roomate with syaf, aisyah and shahirah. Four of us are best friends. For me, we are lah. aha. 2D1N and i'm satisfied. I was in the third group which consists of 11 members and Adri was our leader. Adri, Shakirin, Kiroshen, K.Aqilah, K. Atiqah, Haziqah, Syaf, Nad, Alysha, Wani and Meeeiiisufhy me. We won some of the activities/games and we were extreeemely happy~ like lol who wouldn't be right? And we even got to be the second best group. Ganbatte~~~ 

   It felt like i have been there for a week and more but the reality is i've been there not even almost the whole 2 days.hushh... I even slipped and fell like several times during Jungle Trekking. It felt like my heart was going to fall as well. haha. It was embarassing because the seniors have to pull me up. I appreciate it so much. Sankyu. Oh and my hands were full with cuts. Some people stepped on my hand and ouch because it was bleeding. Thorns got into my skin. Still inside tho. hehe. We have created an unforgettable(not sure bout it tho) and good memories there. Sankyu Bapak(im very sorry i didnt remember the full name), Bro Yusman, Bro Bob, Bro Azmir and Uncle Kopiah Hitam(srry again) for teaching us a bit much about communication and how to build up teamwork and confidence and such things that a prs or pemimpin have to have.  

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I've made a new drawing of senpai. It was based on his latest selfie. I had like four attempt to finish it. It took 3 days. hehehe. I was planning to give him the past 3 days, on Sambutan Hari Guru but damn i bring nothing. My drawing, the letter(AHAHAHA) and wtsv. Padahal he was sitting infront of me all the time. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Aih. I knew i'd regret all of those things haha. Idk if i should tell him i like him or nah. Because I'm not most guys' ideal type so i guess he'll be like "NAHHH". ugh. I shall think about it deeper and deeper hezhez.

I shall sleep now. Until next time. 

Bye.

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Monday, 19 May 2014 @ 23:03
lol my face doeee
     Hi and Assalamualaikum. Yayyy i can finally update my blog! I've been busy with mid-term exam and yeah, school stuffs. Secondary school's exam is not normal i tell you. Haih,, i got some of my results already. Astaghfirullahalazim. I ain't saying anything. Quite upsetting.. I think i didn't push myself to study much. I wander too much. Worst results in Yasmin's history. Damn.

Ok so i want to calm myself down since exam is over. Takmo stress stress.

Alright, soo I've been making gifs from the videos i/my friends took using my old phone.. I thought of sumbatkan segala-gala tu in my posts instead of random korean gifs. hahah 'random' lah sangat kan. jk. I miss using photoshop gila gila macam dulu. haha. Punyalah download psds and ps actions banyak gila dulu. Sekarang boleh kira pakai jari je. Semua orang edit gambar pakai vsco je sekarang haha. But tumblr ninjas be sticking to photoshop. foreva and always. haha, their editing skills,, perghhhhhh. idek how they do it. pros.

Ok so my post takkan lengkap without telling about him senpai. Yeah let's call 'him' senpai. haha. I came to school early last friday. Soo yeah, i have the chance to see senpai (before he went to jummah's prayer) and actually i did. Yeah. Well motif datang awal wasn't because of him but he is one of the reason lah. nyahaha. Motif sebenar was actually to bincang about pertandingan surau. Ala,, alang alang tu bolehlah usha sekali hahaha. MashaaAllah creepy nya kelakuan ku. We were at the canteen and he was at the canteen as well with his friends. Depa duk satu meja panjang. Boleh tahan lah. Kami pula duduk menghadap depa tapi jauh sikit na. Memang menghadap senpai but his friend who was sitting infront of him is tall and so he blocked my view. Aish. So i pandai pandai adjust my head to watch him from my place. Not easy. haiss.

And then he stood up and bought some foods. Ahh the view was veerry the clear that time. "Wooh Wooh" , Aisyah gave me a signal. Dengan matanya haha. And then he went back to his seat. And then dia bangun and beli lagi and duduk balik. I watched every single thing he did. Damn i'm creepy. Ya Allah. And i guessed senpai noticed i was keeping my eyes on him. Well i guess so. Because a while after that, he was like angkat kepala dia and looked in my direction. Idk where was he looking that time. And then i turned my back to take a look if there's someone behind us. But no one except paip sinki. Because our seats was like jauhh gila and tinggal satu meja belakang kitorang. I thought like "was he looking at the sink or what?"

And then masa senpai was sitting, and as i told you before, kawan dia yang infront dia is taller and blocked the view so he was trying to look at something/someone in my direction. Idk. idk. I was sitting dekat paling kiri which was menghadap senpai in my seat. Tak lama lepastu azan solat jumaat berkumandang. So he was the first to stood up. Masa dia angkat beg dia, he looked in my direction again. And then he started to leave the canteen. But as he walked, he kept on turning back and looked in my direction. And again and again until dia keluar pagar sekolah. Dayum. Muka ku ketat macam leggings sepanjang masa although dalam ni sedang berbunga-bunga lmao. I can't say senpai was looking at me because i'm not sure. Did senpai notice me?

Nadu Molla. Alright that's all for this time. May Allah Bless You, my reader. 

Sankyu.

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Wednesday, 5 March 2014 @ 02:21

   Assalamualaikum and Hi. Ahh school is hectic and it always does. I'd like to talk abt it but I don't even know where to start. I shall tell anything.. i'll jump into new topics anytime so kajaaaa~

  The system in our school changed a lil in arranging students into classes. Our school used to have this kind of system where the students will stay in the same class from form 1 until form 3. But since we have a new principal so yeah.. some things change. The rules as well. I thought that I wouldn't and i'd never will get use to the new rules but nahhh its not that bad. Not a big change tho. So i ok ok jerssss. Um speaking about classes, i have this chinese guy i like since the first day of school session of 2013. That time masih noob noob lagi since baru pertama kali nak timba ilmu kat sekolah menengah. Idek how i got attracted to him. Hati dan otakku berkata "agak comel manusia ni jadi jom suka dia" lol ok. 

    I told ya im going to write abt someone i like. Im sorry if it will annoy you. Because im a teenager, so pls understand. Developing crushes in our age is a typical thing right? Im still sorry if my stories will somehow annoy you. Um so here goes. Crush. Haha idk. He is just an existence to entertain my-extremely-boring school days perhaps? Well thats kinda sad. Haih. I started liking him masa era dia pakai spek mata border nipis. Haa punyalah cerita kat my mom and i showed her his picture that i captured during Teacher's Day Celebration that he was in(tah dari mana) and she responded "cina? ala muka sedih je, tak comel mana".. Ha tu masa era spek nipis dia. Bila cerita cerita dengan kawan pulak diorang cam "um bolehla" diorang tak ambil kisah pasal dia that time sebab diorang ada Gabriel :P ish. But istg he is the cutest chinese guy i've ever met. Ahaaaa in my perspective la. Ha so one day, my chinese classmate, he is somehow a close friend of that guy so i asked him the name and etc. Punyalah minat sampai gitu sekali nak ambil information. kekeke. Dulu memang spazz sorang2 lah. Tak berani nak spazz kecoh kecoh like how they spazz Gab. :( takde teman yang sama cita rasa. And kebanyakan diorang macam disgust how we can minat a chinese guy. Hek eleh diorang ni, mamat korea, america sana boleh minat, yang ni setakat cina. Aduh hahaha.

   So as months went by i kept on asking my chinese classmate tu abt that guy. So masa reccess, kitorang bertembung. Haaa jeng jeng jeng. Ah kalau kat kantin memang padat betul. Ada kipas pun masih berpeluh. Sebab kipasnya tak turn on. Aduhai haha. So masa beretmbung my classmate was talking to that guy while pointing his finger towards me. Aha i heard what my classmate told him "dia kata kamu handsome" dengan bunyi bunyi cina dia tu haha. And that guy senyum and cakap apa tah dalam bahasa cina. Ah cair hati ni. Lol so started from that day, he alrdy know i like him. He is a smiling angel. He smiles to anyone. AHHH. I guarantee 100% u guys would melt as well haaaaaaaaaaa. Because of his cuteness. kyaaa. But yeah since i mentioned era spek mata dia, its because at the end of the year like September i guess(?), He changed his spectacles to a full border. A thick one. And he looks different. But as days went by, he looks even cuter. So masa tu lah my friends start terpikat dengan dia. Eish tahu tak betapa calarnya hati aku. Sebab diorang spazz lagi banyak drpd aku. Dia siap lambai lambai dengan kawan kawan aku tu. Aduh patah seribu

   Buttttt satu hari tu, out of sudden my chinese classmate tu campak someone's bag to me. And i recognized the bag. It's that guy's bag. I just.. I didnt know what to do. The bag was in my hand and i went "give it back to him" And my classmate told me that that guy told him to give it to me. I thought he was joking around. But that guy was like outside of our class lek lek senyum je. Aw such a qtpie. Aha lupa nak bagitau, he was my class neighbour. I was in 1B meanwhile he was in 1C. Aha ok continue, i brought my phone that time so apa lagi, ha tangkaplah gambar beg dia. HAHAHAHA i know its kinda retarded and how i acted was completely stupid but mannnn how can u not do that when someone u like gives something he owns kann. Dah rupa sasaeng fan dah aku ni lmao.


Yeah so that's him. He's cuter in real life. I swear.
haa.. im going to continue my story in my next post because it's too damn long. Its a story from 2013. Pls anticipate a lot hehehe. Thanks for spending your time reading my entry. Well....actually it's more to wasting your time since benda ni bukanlah bahan ilmiah. Sobs. Sorry.

Goodbye for now.

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